i’m also doing a million other things but point being the tiny extra time my blog gets has gone the way of the video game. this will correct itself soon but in the mean time…
via YouTube - theCAUSE Turtle Blues .
This song came up on my ipod on the walk home and I realize how much I LOVE IT! and then I looked at youTube and realized how many people have taped themselves singing. TheCause was the one I liked most. This next one simply delights me.
YouTube - Carol Burnett in Get Smart (part1) 1967 .
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Facebook | A Very Yoga Christmas!
It’s an (a)muse production, in association with HorseTrade Theater Group – 8pm till whenever we get done. acts, bands, cupcakes and secret santa (bring a cheap gift – get a cheap gift)
This is was the family party should be like. Come Celebrate the holidays. And check the video for a sampling of the artists you’ll see.
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starting to take sundays home on the couch working on catching up on all the things I didn’t get finished or started the week before.
the boy and I had a lovely weekend where we talked a lot. So much. Good good talking but for a mother a bit heart breaking. I listened and supported the feelings, talked about the fact that the only person he can change is himself and etc. We have a plan. We’ll see how it works.
and i’m trying to write my show. I had a crybaby can’t cope with anything that is happening in my life at all sorta day (hiding it from the boy of course- not his problem) and once he was on the train heading to other home I walked home in the freezing rain, stopping for a bottle of Jack, and perched myself on the couch.
I had determined to have a drunken cryfest with friends coming over to support but I can’t really do it. I’ve cried and sorrowed in fits but there is too much to do. I thought I would write my script in this state. It seems perfect. I put on the itunes country, honk tonk and blues playlist on and sit, have half a shot, wait, write snippets of things that may happen but the show doesn’t come to my mind, the character runs.
My brain remembers the email I have to send. Wonders if it should read a pdf of terms and agreements that concerns the collective’s 503 status. have to compose email to guidence counselor, better set alarm for early, shouldn’t do it this late.
and with the jack in me, bad Idea.
not hammered, loose, thinking of things about this woman I’m making up, trying to fix her as a person in my head. she’s been so alive before and now it’s gone what about the website for him or him I haven’t even started, better see what I can do tomorrow Oh and I need pictures of the theater. Crap have to send email between director and sound person for what is needed on my friend’s show, did the boy get home ok? he hasn’t called, i will dial the phone.
So my show. Hm… you’re in a roadhouse. You’re getting trashed. It’s all about you. what about you, what do you babble at the patrons off this bar… OH I need to send out a christmas letter for the business. Where is that one we had done I thought i had it right here damnit! no. where did It go and why does the bottom of my foot suddenly prick hurt itch?
OH writing. Need full first draft Jan 1st to keep a decent scheduel so I don’t make a fool of myself. oph god I’m gonna make a fool of myself, what am i thinking? do I like this? ok wait, no it’s ok you’re just crazy tonight.
it’s probably the jack. Or the personal resistance to putting myself into a certain head space at this time. the alcohol acts to pull my attention away from seeing her. To only me, only myself, only the things that won’t go away even when I neglect them.
oh what have I forgotten!
have started a to-do list. have a really hard time to remember to look at it. Everything has been in my head for so long. unless it’s a project. daily to-dos – no problem. now…sigh.
i’m not really complaining but trying to figure out how to cope. That word again. I’ve used it about 20 times today. Cope.
i think it’s the issue.
Not only did she create a world where white is the minority and allows the darkness of the predominate skin type to be implied as the norm instead of mentioned constantly but this quote today thrilled me:
“What’s wrong with men?” Tenar inquired caughtiously.
As cautiously, lowering her voice, Moss replied, “I don’t know, my dearie. I’ve thought on it. Often I’ve thought on it. The best I can say it is like this. A man’s in his skin, see, like a nut in it’s shell.” She held up her long, bent, wet fingers as if holding a walnut. “It’s hard and strong, that shell, and it’s all full of him. Full of grand man-meat, manself. And that’s all. That’s all there is. It’s all him and nothing else, inside.” -
Tehanu, Ursula K. Le Guin
“Guys, males, men: you are in an incredible position to prevent violence against women, especially sexual violence. Date-rape is more common than you probably think, and oftentimes women do not come forward regarding their experiences with it. Why?”
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“Rapists aren’t monsters in dark alleyways, true; they are the person walking across the street, that guy in Spanish class, the man you saw fist-pumping at a party last week. And these men aren’t born rapists, monsters within waiting to pounce out. No, they are created by the notion that it is okay to view women as nothing more than an achievement, a challenge, or an object to be used during a one-night stand. Rape is the logical conclusion of this mode of thinking. When a man begins to view sex simply as an arena in which to attain power – to get pats-on-the-back or a personal feeling of accomplishment – the proverbial seed has already sprouted. Rape is a showing of power, a grasping for control over somebody. When a man dehumanizes a woman in his own mind, he is already crossing the line.”
via An apology and response – Opinion.
YouTube - Blind Melon – No Rain .